I'm so proud of us!

I am so proud of my family. My son brought home his final report card: All A's. My daughter, who has been teetering on the brink of destruction all year, came home with hers as well: All B's. Can I just insert a hearty YIPPEEEEEEE right here? It was such a group effort for me to be as successful at work as I have been, which enabled us to buy our house. Life is only looking up.

I was talking to a dear friend today over lunch and I realized I have been going through a "Woe is Me" period. When I moved back into the middle of no-where a year ago, I did it for everyone else but me. I did it because my kids needed to be closer to their Dad. I did it because my parents needed me. I think last summer may have been a rock bottom for me. I didn't know anyone. The kids were gone to their Dad's for the summer. While this all sounds very self-less, which is not my first nature, I began to grow resentment. Even though I chose this course, I resented parts of it. I knew if my kids were going to stay in close proximity to their Dad, I had to move back closer to where he lived. So... he became the perfect person to blame for all the woes of the world. So I moaned and wailed and whined about how un-fair life is. And all the time my pretty little life began to blossom anyway.

While I was walking through the valley of Woe is Me, my work prospered to the point that I had enough savings to make a down payment on a house. Even in this market. My children found great friends. I remembered why I loved this place so much when I was growing up. I made friends. I connected with my faith again in a new and fresh way. I began to love music again. I began to feel again. I began to write again. Music and writing have been dead in me for almost 3 years. And now it is all being re-born to a better place. A new place. A prosperous place.

I know this last year has not been an attractive time to be my friend. I'm sure that is why I have repeled men as well! It has just been messy. Ugly. Frustrating. It has taken patience and tolerance. I have felt, and said, for the last 2 years that I see the tide turning in my life. I think it is time to ride that wave. The first half of my life was filled with struggle and I paid into it. I invested heavily in being the person I felt I should be despite my struggles. I believe that now I am seeing the fruit. I was reminded the other day that whatever you sow you will reap. You won't necessarily reap it right away though and it won't be in the same proportion that you sowed. If you plant a kernal of corn you will wait quite a while before it is ready to harvest. And when you harvest it you will reap a whole stalk with multiple ears that have multiple kernals. What you sow multiplies. So what you sow you will reap later and you will reap in abundance.

So I am proud of what we have accomplished together. My kids are my partners in crime and I am so proud of all of us.

Wait... doesn't the Bible say something about pride comes before the fall?? Uh oh.

:)))))