Overwhelming Overwhelmed-ness

Have you ever had waves flush over you of just overwhelming... overwhelmed-ness? I look around this house of mine. Dirty clothes everywhere. A kitchen that frightens me. Children who make a mess at every turn. Things thrown around from baseball, the end of school, guitar class, etc. And then I realize how under prepared I am to move.

I close on my house this Thursday. OMG. That is the day after tomorrow. I am so happy. And so scared. And so overwhelmed. And so excited. We will be swimming in our very own pool by a week from Friday. What a blessed woman I am.

My Dad goes in for a consultation with the surgeon who will operate on his carotid artery the same day I close on my house. His surgery will most likely be during the two weeks I will be moving. I am steeling myself for that as well. He has a terrible reaction to the anesthesia in which he becomes combative and has been restrained in his bed for three days at a time. Mom & I have to rotate shifts caring for him because it is so challenging. He is soooo worth it though. I have been incredibly blessed with amazing parents.

I need to keep telling myself that I am strong enough to do all of this. I am, right? Right? Let's hope so.

But here I sit, procrastinating. Feeling nervous. Feeling scared. Blogging to you when I should be packing boxes. I think I can, I think I can. Now if I can overcome this overwhelmed-ness I will survive and live and see my father live to be 100 and swim in my pool until then.

Fingers crossed.