Friends

I have realized in the last 3 years how blessed I am to have good and true friends. I am not one to struggle with deep issues much. I have learned to just watch & listen and the truth will come out. It is important not to jump to conclusions or judge things prematurely. I have decided to give people the benefit of the doubt and then be kind to them anyway, if it ends up they didn't deserve it.

I have two best friends. What a lucky girl I am. Not many people can boast even one. A week ago one of those friends was in a very sad state of mind & I didn't even think twice about running to be with her, even though it was an hour away & dark o'clock. That is what friends do. Later that night my other best friend did the same thing when she found out she was needed. We all pow-wow-ed together. Three little monkey's on the bed, until we all fell asleep. When we woke up the next morning, life was still pretty sucky. We did not solve world hunger that night. We didn't fix the problems in our own lives. But we had loved. We were better for having loved each other that night.

My Christianity has become it's own entity in this world. The more life experience I gain, the less theology I can spit out at people in pain. I know the theology, but more importantly I know the God the theology is about. The one thing I know about Christ and how He applies to this life is the unconditional love He gives. He was there that night in all of our messed up-ness. I'm sure he grimaced at times, winced at some points, and cried with us. And He loved. Of this I am certain. He loved.

My life has been extraordinary. I have loved passionately, hurt incredibly, lived freely, given totally, cried endlessly and laughed myself into cheek cramps. I do not regret any of it. God will weave this tapestry as He pleases from here but as for me... I will live. I will love. I will know God better for doing so.